The good news had arrived. Another opportunity was knocking my door. The news of one of the dream company coming to our campus, for recruitment, had arrived. So will I be able to make it? Lets see…
Everyone wanted to get the dream job. Some people were moving here and there asking doubts to each other while some of them were trying to revise the formulae, while there were some who were just giggling and chilling out. There was still half an hr remaining for aptitude to start. It was 11 am, the instructor came and informed us about the formalities to be filled on paper. It was 60 mins test containing 60 MCQ’s. The clock reached 11.15 am and our test started. Soon the paper was in my hand and I started solving questions. There were questions ranging from all sections- verbal reasoning to logical reasoning to quants, all of them of advanced difficulty level. It seemed that time was running very fast and soon the one hour was over. My paper was not up to the mark, not the way I had thought it would be, couldn’t solve quite a few questions and had to mark them randomly. I was not satisfied.
We came out of the exam room. People started discussing all questions. I was in no mood to discuss and started walking towards my destination.(as of now my Home sweet Home)
Next day morning I woke up and immediately turned on my wi-fi to check whether the result was declared or not but there wasn’t any message. Thoughts started popping in my mind. I gave an apti which was probably a bad one, time consuming and some of them left unattempt. I didn’t know whether I will make it or not. And if yes, then will I be able to ace the interviews. My mind was saying “NO” while my heart hoping for a “YES”. I was in ambivalent state, not knowing whom to listen. I was in a very pathetic situation, thinking and thinking constantly. But I was still high on my hopes.
I came back from my lost world as soon as my mom called me. I had my final year university exams 2 days after and hadn’t started studying for it. I took the book which read “Artificial Intelligence”-by Russell, and started studying. How much did I try but couldn’t concentrate. I switched my cell on and off every 2 hrs but there were no news of shortlisted candidates. My mind bounced back to the “thought world”. Again I started thinking about how my future would be, what was waiting for me- something good or something bad and many such things that randomly started flowing in my mind. In short, I was suffering from thought attack.
Two days were over and it was time to give another exam-My final year BE-Engineering exams. I wasn’t prepared much for it but with the help of few friends and little bit of studies I had prepared just enough to pass. This was not usually how I used to prepare for any of my exams. But this time circumstances were different. I literary felt that all my intelligence was drained and I would really need to buy an “artificial” one, after all the paper also demanded that.
Ah! It was 11 am yet again. The paper was of 3 hrs duration. The bell rang and I started writing. The paper was pretty manageable. I mean quite a lot of questions were repeated from past year papers. It convinced me to pass with an average marks. The paper got over at 2. People were more worried about aptitude result than about exams because if we cleared then we were supposed to give our interviews on the very next day. I asked people at training and placement office but they had no clue.
I left from college. On my way back, I received a call from my friend. What do you think could have been the result? (if you are guessing that the reason for sharing this experience is probably because I passed, then you are wrong). Yes, I didn’t clear the aptitude test. It was a moment where my heart was defeated badly by my mind. But this time I had decided: I’m not going to cry, in fact never ever I’m gonna cry. I had made my mind very strong. Held all my feelings very tightly, and decided that I will be so strong that I will work harder and get what I want-my DREAM JOB-its only then I’m gonna cry, not because of my sadness or failure but because of happiness. Yes it requires lot of courage to say this and even more to do it.
Well, this is not the end of my life lessons though it may be end of this episode. I have much more to achieve, many things to be done. Every moment of your life is some lesson to be learnt. I learnt to develop positive attitude which is the most important thing to have if you fail in your life. Keep trying hard and get a step closer to your success. Throw all your negative feelings out, remain focused and leave the rest to God. Enough said, it’s time to do it so till then stay tuned.